Fly Over Salute
I have been wanting to blog about this for a couple of weeks, but I have been busy trying to get the new book ready for print. I decided I was going to take the night off so I could write about my experience a few weeks back. It was on a Friday after work when I pulled into the driveway. It was a beautiful warm sunny day and I was planning on taking my dog for a walk. I got Buddy all leashed up and ready to go and we proceeded to walk around the block which takes about 20-30 minutes depending how fast he wants to go or how many times he stops along the way to take in the new smells.
When we finally arrived back home I noticed there was a package at my front door. It had probably been there all afternoon but I didn’t notice it when I arrived home that evening because I usually arrive and leave the house through my garage. I walk up to the package and my heart kind of stopped for a moment. I was expecting this package but not for another week, so it took me by surprise. I felt like a little kid at opening a gift as I tore into the package. When I opened it up I just stood there holding it in my hands. The last two years of my life and a lot of my finances was invested in what I held in my hand; it was the final proof for my Grieving Dads: To the Brink and Back book. Finally, after all of this time I held it in my hands. I had this overwhelming since of pride and accomplishment feeling inside. I have held the manuscript in my hands and have seen the cover design, but never together and never in a tangible hard copy.
I told my wife to grab a couple of cocktails and meet me on the patio so we can celebrate this major milestone. We were sitting outside on this beautiful evening and I was overwhelmed with excitement regarding all of the work I have done and here I was holding all of it in my hands, very close to being ready to send out to all of the people that need it most. We were sitting there when I happen to look up and saw a Blue Heron fly over our house. He was flying so low I could hear his wings. A couple of minutes later another one flew over in the same direction and about the same height.
Watching these two large birds fly over made me smile. The reason they made me smile is the fact that the summer (2006) after I lost Noah, I saw these large birds everywhere I went, I even watched them land on top of a very large willow tree, which is rare to see them land in a tree 70’ in the air. I also associate Willow trees with Katie because they were the only tree that still had bright yellow leaves on them the day that Katie died (2004). I remember sitting in the car on the way home looking out the window watching these trees blow in the wind as if they were saying goodbye. Because of that experience and seeing these birds shortly after we lost Noah, I also associate Blue Herons with both Katie and Noah.
To me, having these two birds fly over within minutes and on the same night I received a hard copy of this book, it meant that they were telling me nice job daddy, nice job.
I am very proud of what I have created and I can only hope that it will help many grieving dads out there realize they are not alone and that others, many others, are on the same path and often think and feel the same way.
Thank you to all of you that have been with me along this journey.