I have tried many times to explain the pain of losing a child to those that have not lost a child. I’ve come to the conclusion that there are no words to describe it. You have to experience it to fully understand it. It’s more than grief, it changes everything about you in ways that takes years to fully understand.
The pain is all encompassing and it smothers you with relentless despair. There are times you don’t think you will survive it, I’ve met some that haven’t. It’s a terrible terrible thing for one to endure.
It is survivable, in fact I think one can thrive after the processing and hard work is completed. It takes a major transformation of self to get to this point.
I don’t wish it on anyone, but I will be here to help others through it if I can. It’s the least I can do. I stand at the bright end of that dark dark tunnel and know the journey is long and dark for those behind me.